Burrito Supreme, oh **

It's hard to rely on my good intentions
When my head's full of things that I can't mention
Seems I usually get things right
But I can't understand what I did last night

And it's hard to rely on my own good senses
When I miss so much that requires attention
I have to laugh at myself sometimes
And I can see that I'm not blind

There's little relief
Give us reprieve, oh**
For all the things I've left behind
I'm positive that I'm not blind*

--

* Good Intentions by Toad The Wet Sprocket
** I always sing this as "burrito supreme" because my then-boyfriend used to do it to annoy me. And I totally pretended to be miffed by it because it made him laugh that laugh I loved. :)

Someday is NOW! Time to live OUTLOUD!

You can go
You can start all over again
You can try to find a way to make another day go by
You can hide
Hold all your feelings inside
You can try to carry on when all you want to do is cry

And maybe someday
We'll figure all this out
Try to put an end to all our doubt
Try to find a way to make things better now and
Maybe someday we'll live our lives out loud
We'll be better off somehow
Someday

Now wait
And try to find another mistake
If you throw it all away then maybe you can change your mind
You can run, oh
And when everything is over and done
You can shine a little light on everything around you
Man it's good to be someone*

--
* Someday by Rob Thomas

Emotion is the only thing real...

* The Dive by Fool's Gold

Easily triggered

So many times I've wondered where I've gone
And how I found my way back in
I look around awhile for something lost
Maybe I'll find it in the end

And I'm feelin' the same way all over again
Feelin' the same way all over again
Singin' the same lines all over again
No matter how much I pretend*

--
* Feelin' the Same Way by Norah Jones

Numb

See I feel no pleasure
and I feel no pain
so what else can I do?
I can't stop killing you.*

--
* Can't Stop Killing You by Kirsty MacColl

Without...

Sweet the sin
Bitter taste in my mouth
I see seven towers
But I only see one way out

You got to cry without weeping
Talk without speaking
Scream without raising your voice*

--
* Running to Stand Still by U2

That's one way to do it

Say when you're alone
It's better 'cause nobody knows you
When no one's your friend
It's better 'cause nobody leaves you
So you turned your back
On a world that you could never have
'Cause your heart's been cracked
And everyone else's is goin' mad

But I hear voices
And I see colors
But I wish I felt nothing
Then it might be easy for me
Like it is for you *

--
* I Wish I Felt Nothing by The Wallflowers

Grey Street

by Dave Matthews

Oh look at how she listens
She says nothing of what she thinks
She just goes stumbling through her memories
staring out onto Grey Street
She thinks, "Hey, how did I come to this?
I dream myself a thousand times around the world
but I can't get out of this place."

There's an emptiness inside her
and she'd do anything to fill it in
but all the colors mix together-- to grey
and it breaks her heart

You know she wishes it was different
She prays to God most every night
and though she swears it doesn't listen
there's still a hope in her it might.
She says, "I pray but my prayers they fall on deaf ears,
am I supposed to take it on myself
to get out of this place?"

There's a loneliness inside her
and she'd do anything to fill it in
and though it's red blood bleeding from her now
it feels like cold blue ice in her heart
when all the colors mix together--to grey
and it breaks her heart

There's a stranger speaks outside her door
says "take what you can from your dreams
make them as real as anything
it'll take the work out of courage"

But she says, "Please
there's a crazy man that's creeping outside my door
I live on the corner of Grey Street
and the end of the world"

There's an emptiness inside her
and she'd do anything to fill it in
and though it's red blood bleeding from her now
it's more like cold blue ice in her heart
she feels like kicking out all the windows
and setting fire to this life
she could change everything about her
using colors bold and bright
but all the colors mix together--to grey
and it breaks her heart
it breaks her heart
to grey