Maybe...

It's almost nine and I'm back in line
I can't get the girl with the Spanish tears
Out of my mind
I've got to make her mine, all mine
But somethin' is wrong
She don't belong
She oughta be back where she's from
Maybe back home is Mexico City
Man, I don't know her
But she sure is pretty

But God don't make lonely girls
Sure didn't want 'em in His world
God don't make lonely girls
Yeah, yeah, doo doo doo doo

Now when I make that girl all mine
I'm gonna stand by her
Once I get inside of
Her barbed wire
Once I get inside
I bet she'd look good in a brand new dress
She never felt good in her fish net
She's got to be this town's best mess
But it ain't nothin' that her face would suggest *

--
* God Don't Make Lonely Girls by The Wallflowers

But is it?

But oh how it feels so real
Lying here with no one near
Only you, and you can hear me
When I say softly, slowly

Hold me closer tiny dancer
Count the headlights on the highway
Lay me down in sheets of linen
you had a busy day today*

--
* Tiny Dancer by Sir Elton John

Merengueras are not jealous

A la que anda por ahi
coqueteando a mi mari'o
por no averigua primero, por no averigua primero
se esta metiendo en un lío.
Y no es que mi hombre sea malo,
esa no es la realidad,
ni tampoco es porque yo, ni tampoco es porque yo
este dispuesta a pelear.

Lo que pasa es que ella ignora
tal vez por inexperiencia
que en materia del amor
yo no tengo competencia
y aunque esto no se oiga bien
y el mundo a mi me critique,
modestia y aparte digo "no hay esa que me lo quite"

No hay esa que me lo quite,
La que quiera a mi mari'o se ta metiendo en un lío.
No hay esa que me lo quite,
Porque el mapa de su cuerpo solamente yo lo entiendo.
No hay esa que me lo quite.
En eso nadie me gana yo soy una veterana,
No hay esa que me lo quite,
Ni se compra ni se hace con este melao se nace.

~*~
The one that has been
Flirting with my husband
is getting into a mess
for not investigating first.
It's not that my man is bad.
That's not the truth.
Nor is it that I, nor is it that I
am willing to fight.

What happens is that she ignores,
perhaps because of inexperience,
that in matters of love
I have no competition.
And although that doesn't sound good
and people might criticize me,
modesty aside I say "there isn't one that can take him away."

There isn't one that can take him away.
Whoever wants my husband is getting into a mess.
There isn't one that can take him away.
Because the map of his body only I understand.
There isn't one that can take him away.
At that nobody beats me. I'm an expert.
There isn't one that can take him away
This sugar cannot be bought or made, one's born with it.

--
No Hay Esa Que Me Lo Quite by Chabelly

Merengueras are confident

Por fuera se ve contento
Pero por dentro se esta muriendo

El no puede estar sin mi
Porque yo soy especial
Se que a nadie va a encontrar
A que vuelve
A que vuelve
Apuesto a que vuelve
Te aseguro que vuelve
Te lo puedo yo jurar

[...]

En busca de este fuego
Que lo quema por dentro
No importa lo que diga
A que vuelve*

~ * ~

On the outside he looks happy
But on the inside he is dying

He cannot be without me
Because I'm special
I know that he won't find anyone
I bet he comes back
I bet he comes back
I will bet that he comes back
I assure you that he'll come back
I can swear it to you

In search of this fire
That burns him up inside
No matter what he says
I bet he comes back

--
* A Que Vuelve by Gisselle

Merengueras share ;)

Qué hace, que me compre un vestido y que baile toda la noche conmigo
Que quiera abrazarme y el pelo acariciarme.
Dime qué hace si él es tu buen marido, Yo tu amiga confiable.

Yo no soy una loba, no! Yo no voy a comérmelo.
Yo no voy a defilar sus carnes y a mandarte los huesos.
Yo no soy una loba, no! Yo no voy a robártelo.
Mira yo no voy a devorarle, no debes preocuparte.

~ * ~
What does it matter that he buys me a dress and dances the entire night with me,
That he might want to hug me and caress my hair.
Tell me, what does it matter if he's your good husband, and I your good friend.

I'm not a shewolf, no! I will not eat him.
I'm not going to defile his flesh and send you the bones.
I am not a shewolf, no! I will not steal him.
Look, I'm not going to devour him. You shouldn't worry.

--
* La Loba by Miriam Cruz

Merengueras are patient...to a point

Tu te estas arriesgando
(you are taking a risk)
Y yo me estoy cansando
(and I'm getting tired)

Caro caro te puede salir
(Costly, it could cost you)
Caro por tenerme asi
(Costly, for having me like this)
Caro caro y vas a sufrir
(Costly, costly, and you will suffer)
Caro pues no soy feliz
(Costly, because I'm not happy)

Me dijiste "voy a cambiar" y no basta
(You said, "I will change" and that's not enough)
Con promesas no se calienta almohada
(Promises do not warm the pillow)
Juegas a la ruleta rusa y perderas
(You're playing Russian roulette and you will lose)
En serpiente no se puede confiar
(Snakes can't be trusted)

Caro caro te puede salir
(Costly, it could cost you)
Caro por tenerme asi
(Costly, for keeping me like this)
Caro caro y vas a sufrir
(Costly, costly, and you will suffer)
Caro pues no soy feliz
(Costly, because I'm not happy)

--
Caro by Milly Quezada

Meregueras are generous ;)

Aunque tu no eres mi dueño
(Even though you aren't my owner)
Pues yo soy dueña de mi
(Since I own myself)
Todas las cosas que tengo
(Everything that I have)
Quiero que sean para ti
(I want it to be yours)

...

El beso de sal
(The salty kiss)
Todo es para ti
(Everything is for you)
Te doy mi rosal
(I give you my rose bush)
Todo mi jardin
(My entire garden)

Si me pides lo que tengo aqui
(If you ask for what I have here)
Yo te lo doy
(I give it to you)

Si me pides lo que tengo aqui
(If you ask for what I have here)
Yo te lo doy
(I give it to you)

--
** Te Lo Doy by Las Chicas Del Can

It's Merengueras Week

Pasion morena*
Mi voz sin cadenas
He decidido abrir mis alas
Hacer lo que me da la gana
y sueño sueño que tu te des cuenta
Que aunque parezca un poco loca
Se como amar y hacer feliz a quien yo quiera
Si te atreves a entegarte
A esta pasion morena

Almas gemelas que sienten fuego en la piel
Tu amor salvaje que me fascina
Me domina
Toma mi mano y junto a ti caminare
Y te entregare pasion morena

~*~

Tawny passion
My unchained voice
I've decided to spread my wings
And do whatever I darn please
And I dream & dream that you will notice
That even though I might appear a bit crazy
I know know how to love and please whomever I want
If you dare to surrender
To this tawny passion

Twin souls that feel fire on their skin
Your wild love fascinates me
It dominates me
Take my hand and I'll walk by your side
and I will give you tawny passion

--
* Pasion Morena by Olga Tañón
** Morena: A spanish word used to describe Latinas who are tanned/dark (i.e., dark hair-brunette, dark eyes, dark skin) in varying degrees. The word has been translated as tawny.

Hm. I guess that explains me.

Having a conversation with two of my friends, the topic of relationships came up. When asked what I would've done in a certain drama-filled situation, I expressed my lack of patience for people who play games and that I only give partners one chance to get it right. One of them asked when I learned that (wondering if I had ever been played). I explained that I have always felt this way. They wondered if I learned it from my mother. I told them that my parents have been happily married for 34 years. Then, a few days later, this song came on and I remembered growing up listening to Milly** and other Merengueras*** who insisted on no-non-sense relationships in their songs. So I appear to be a product of my culture.

Aunque me parta en dos,
Aunque me explote en el pecho el corazon herido
Se me turbe la mente pensando en ti
Ya yo no regreso.

Aunque me parta en dos,
Aunque la pena me arranque en un soplo la vida
Y se me acabe el camino que me aleja de ti
Ya yo no regreso

Y lloraras, lamentaras y sufriras por mi,
Pero no vuelvo a tu lado (no vuelvo).
Y lloraras, lamentaras y sufriras por mi,
Pero no vuelvo a tu lado (no vuelvo)
Aunque me parta en dos.

~*~

Even if I were breaking in half
Even if my broken heart were to explode inside my chest
and my mind became clouded with thoughts of you,
I will not return.

Even if I were breaking in half
Even if sorrow were to tear from me my own life with a sigh
and I reach the end of the road that leads me away from you,
I will not return.

And you will cry, lament and suffer over me,
But I will not come back to you (not coming back)
And you will cry, lament and suffer over me,
But I will not come back to you (not coming back)
Even if I were breaking in half.

--
* Aunque Me Parta en Dos by Milly Quezada
** Milly was married for 20 years to Rafael Vásquez, who was also her manager, when he passed away while she was on tour. She has never remarried.
*** Merengue is the traditional music of the Dominican Republic. A Merenguera is a female performer of this music genre.

Do wishes really come true?

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone

Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone*

--
* Boulevard Of Broken Dreams by Green Day

Resistance is futile

They took pictures of our dreams

Ran to hide behind the stairs

And said maybe when it's right for you, they'll fall

But if they don't come down

Resist the need to pull them in

And throw them away

Better to save the mystery

Than surrender to the secret *

--
* Another Day by Dream Theater

I don't shrug...I roll away ;)

Slow down, Lie down,
Remember it's just you and me.
Don't sell out, bow out,
Remember how this used to be.

I just want you closer,
Is that alright?
Baby let's get closer tonight

Grant my last request,
And just let me hold you.
Don't shrug your shoulders,
Lay down beside me.
Sure I can accept that we're going nowhere,
But one last time let's go there,
Lay down beside me

Oh, I've found, that I'm bound
To wander down that one way road.
And I realize all about your lies
But I'm no wiser than the fool I was before.

I just want you closer,
Is that alright?
Baby let's get closer tonight

Got 'em! Can't wait for hugs :)

Por tanto tiempo quise
encontrar la solución
a ese gran vacío que llevaba en mi interior
Todo lo intenté por donde quiera te busqué
Eras tú mi necesidad
Alce mi rostro y...

Llegaste tú y todo cambio
Llegaste tú, la esperanza triunfó
Llegaste tú, volví a nacer *

--
* Listen/watch: Llegaste Tu by Jesse & Joy

I want soul kisses!

Look in my eyes, what do you see?
Not just the color
Look inside of me
Tell me all you need and I will try
I will try

I'm going to love you more than anyone
I'm going to hold you closer than before
And when I kiss your soul, your body'll be free
I'll be free for you anytime
I'm going to love you more than anyone *

I want to fly

Although I would like our world to change
It helps me to appreciate
Those nights and those dreams
But, my friend, I'd sacrifice all those nights
If I could make the Earth and my dreams the same
The only difference is
To let love replace all our hate

So let's go there
Let's make our escape
Come on, let's go there
Let's ask can we stay?

Can you take me higher?
To the place where blind men see
Can you take me higher?
To the place with golden streets

Up high I feel like I'm alive for the very first time
Up high I'm strong enough to take these dreams
And make them mine*

--
* Higher by Creed

Submissive Gratitude

Don't be angry if I wash his feet with my tears
And I dry them with my hair
You weren't there the night He found me
You did not feel what I felt
When He wrapped his love all around me and
You don't know the cost of the oil
In my alabaster box *

--
* Alabaster Box by CeCe Winans

Ode to Facebook

To all of those whose insistence led me to promise that I'd join Facebook, I will keep my promise but not without one last say. ;P

I stand here face to face
With someone that I used to know
He used to look at me and laugh
But now he claims
That he's known me for so very long
But I remember being no one

I wanted to be just like you
So perfect, so untouchable
Now you want me to be with you
Someone who used to have it all
Do you remember now
You acted like you never noticed me
Forget it
Cause the gone has come around
And you're not allowed to be a part of me

Did you know me?
Or were you too preoccupied
With playing king in your small kingdom
And now the real world
Has stripped you of your royalty
And from your kingdom you're evicted*

--
* Remember me by Hoobastank

Note: To those who do not know me, I was not an outcast in high school. Quite the contrary. I simply object to devoting time now to people who failed to demonstrate interest when it mattered.

Over lyrics and wine

Never Before, Never Again
Performed by Miss Piggy in The Muppet Movie

Never before have two souls joined
so freely, and so fast.
For me this is the first time,
and the last.
Is this an angel's wish for men?
Never before and never again.

And where to find the words to sing it's worth
This love was bound for heaven, not for earth
This love was meant to light the stars,
But when we touched, we made it ours.

And would they take it back?
Oh, no, they wouldn't dare!
Why should they take it back,
When there's enough to share with all the world,
And fill the heavens above
With left-over love?

Never before, a love that just keeps growing on and on,
To fill each lover's heart and light the dawn.
Is this an angel's wish for men?
Never before and never again.
Never before and never again.

Ready to shine!

...Rounding third to score the winning run
You always played with passion no matter what the game
When you took the stage you shined just like the sun*

--
* Why by Rascal Flatts
** This is a very sad song, but I loved this verse because I too would like to be remembered by my shining moments instead of my death after I'm gone.

More than just a [pretty] face in the crowd

You better stand tall
When they're calling you out
Don't bend, don't break
Baby, don't back down

It's my life
It's now or never
'Cause I ain't gonna live forever
I just wanna live while I'm alive *

--
* It's My Life by Bon Jovi

On the highway...not just metaphorically **

Life's like a road that you travel on
When there's one day here and the next day gone
Sometimes you bend sometimes you stand
Sometimes you turn your back to the wind
There's a world outside every darkened door
Where blues won't haunt you anymore
Where the brave are free and lovers soar
Come ride with me to the distant shore
We won't hesitate break down the garden gate
There's not much left today

Life is a highway
I want to ride it all night long
If you're going my way
I want to drive it all night long*

--
* Life is a Highway by Tom Cochrane
** For those curious about why I'm on the highway: My Quest

Packing reminds me of...

Samsonite Man
by Alicia Keys

He's a man so full of style and grace
Any woman'd be impressed
Takes a smile and paints it on your face
Makes you feel like you've been blessed
Promises things so special
It seems to come right from a song
But soon as you begin to feel secure
You turn around and he is gone

Packin' his bags
Gotta go gotta go
Packin' his bags
Gotta go
He's a Samsonite man
Maybe he is just a rolling stone
Wondering from here to there
Searching for a place to call his own
You wonder if he even cares?
So many years of heartache and pain
Is all you seem to know him for
Is it you or is it he to blame
Whenever he walks out your door

Should the wind blow you in my direction
You come through to rendezvous
Forget about your good intentions,
They leave me lonely and confused
Mr. Samsonite
Pack a bag that is my suggestion
From here and out, you will be leaving
At My discretion!

--
* Packing reminded me of the song and the song reminded me of George Clooney (cuz he's a man full of style and grace) in the movie up in the air...even though his luggage is a Travelpro instead of a Samsonite.

A new sound

There's a new sound
The newest sound around
The strangest sound that you have ever heard
Not like a wild boar
Or a jungle lion's roar
It isn't like the cry of any bird
But there's a new sound
It's deep down in the ground
And everyone who listens to it squirms
Because this new new sound
So deep down in the ground
Is the sound that's made by worms *

--
* LISTEN to There's a New Sound by The Muppets

Today We Celebrate

To understand just why we praise let me tell you how it all went down
The news spread so very fast, people came from miles around
This would be the day Christ would be crucified
He took His last breath, He hung His head and He died
They took my Savior down from off that rugged cross
They laid Him in a tomb, it seemed all hope was truly lost
But the third day came along and brought the rhythm of life
The stone was rolled away, an angel proudly proclaimed

He lives (He lives) He lives
(Christ is risen) Christ is risen just like He said
(Our Lord and Savior) The Lord and Savior's no longer dead
Rejoice and celebrate, He lives, He lives, Jesus, He's alive *

--
* Celebrate by Fred Hammond

Catch me if you can!

Until I Die
by Brandi Carlile

Hey there what's that in your sky
With all the pretty lights
You think I can get that high?

Hey you man, where's your motivation
And why the celebration
You've gotten nothing done here

You wanna live until you
Die alone and will
Fly alone and will
I'm not so far below
I live beneath your sky
With tainted eyes,
I've made my mind
To live until I die

Run run run catch me if you can can can
Come and hold my hand and I'll be your biggest fan
Followers living in your hollow words
I have seen your nine to fives
Wash away your dreams

You wanna live until you
Die alone and will
Fly alone and will
I'm not so far below
I live beneath your sky
With tainted eyes,
I've made my mind
To live until I die

A dungeon is way cooler anyways!

Like a damsel in distress
I'm stressing you
My castle became my dungeon
Cuz I'm longing for you
I'm Feeling strong for ya
You're my knight in shining armor
See your face in the silver moon
Hung over the lagoon
And it feels like...

Dragon days and the fire's hot
Like a desert needs water
I need you a lot
Dragon days
I need to be saved
I'm missin' you
And the day drags on and on *

--
* Dragon Days by Alicia Keys

Sounding Foolish on April Fool's Day

"When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child,
I thought as a child; but when I became a man,
I put away childish things." ~ 1 Corinthians 13:11

...'cept for once a year on April Fool's Day!

Now, speaking of "When I was a child, I spoke as child..."

When I was 16 years old, I wanted to start dating because I'd develop a huge crush on a boy but my mother was very much against it. In my young age, I didn't really know how to communicate how important this boy was to me so I got very dramatic (as I'd seen in the movies) and said, "I love him! I'll die without him." My mother responded with a laugh and said, "Oh really?! You'll die?! This I'd like to see." That was pretty much the first and last time I did things as I saw in the movies. Obviously that wasn't going to work on my mother. Plus I felt pretty foolish after I'd said it. Of course I wasn't going to die! I just met this guy like 2 months before. Since then, I vowed never to make such unrealistic declarations.

Now, you all know that I love lyrics. This is mostly because I love music, words, and poetry and lyrics embody all of those. That having been said, I tend to dislike songs that contain lyrics which characterize the above mentioned unrealistic declarations of love and commitment. With a few exceptions (such as the ones classified as "more realistic"), the songs below will never make it to my iPod.

Theme #1. I'd die without you.

• "The tears dry, without you. Life goes on, but I'm gone. Cause I die, without you..." from Without You by the cast of Rent.
  
• "Cause if you're gone, inside, I'd die without you." from I'd Die Without You by PM Dawn
• "I can't live if living is without you..." from I Can't Live... by Mariah Carey
• "Without you in my life, I'd slowly wilt and die..." from Without You by Motley Crue
  

More realistic:

• "I miss you like crazy, I miss you like crazy; no matter what I say or do there's just no getting over you..." from I Miss You Like Crazy by Natalie Cole
  

Theme #2. I'll give you anything/everything.

• "I'll give you anything you want..." from Anything, Anything by Dramarama
• "I'll give you everything I am..." from I'll Give You Everything by D-Side
• "I’ll give you everything (it's yours) all that you’re lookin’ for..." from I'll Give You Everything by Mansun
  

More realistic:

• "I'll give you everything you want, except the thing that you want" from Original of the Species by U2
  
• "And I would do anything for love, but I won't do that, I won't do that" ~ I'd Do Anything for Love by Meatloaf
  

Theme #3. Only you.

• "If I can't have you, I don't want nobody baby, If I can't have you, ah ah ah" from If I Can't Have You by Yvonne Elliman
• "If I can't have you, then I don't want anyone..." from If I Can't Have You by Kelly Clarkson
• "If I couldn't have you, I'd rather be alone..." from Falling in Love at a Coffee Place by Landon Pigg
• "Now I know I can't love anyone but you..." from Die Alone by Ingrid Michaelson

More realistic:

• "You know that I love you, There's no one above you. I said it the last time, But this is the last time. Don't make me over, Cuz I can be faithful. Baby you're my number one. You're my number one." from Number One by John Legend

...makes me wonder about his #2 and his #3. ;) Please don't think I'm a cynic when it comes to love. I very much believe in love as more than a random occurrence. I've been in love many many times...usually with people who have been very deserving of my love and who have reciprocated many times over.

Now be a little childish today and prank someone! I assure you that I've already done so. ;)