*heart* Reik *heart*

Me duele amarte 
Los sueños que eran para ti  
Se pierden con cada palabra  
Con cada momento que espere vivir 

Me duele mas imaginar 
Que tu te vas y dejaras  
Detras de ti
Tu ausencia en mis brazos  

Me duele tanto sospechar  
Que ni tu sombra volvera  
Para abrigar 
Mi alma en pedazos

 

[...]

Me duele aquel Abril  
Cuando te vi
Por vez primera y dije que eras para mi 
Me duele amarte tanto

--
Me Duele Amarte by Reik

What about...me?

What about everything?
What about aeroplanes? 

And what about ships that drank the sea?

What about...
What about the moon and stars? 

What about soldier battle scars?
And all the anger that they eat

What about...

What about aliens? 

What about you and me? 

And what about gold beneath the sea?
What about....

What about when buildings fall? 

What about that midnight phone call?
The one that wakes you from your peace

Well I am not, I am not, I am not in need

--
What About Everything? by Carbon Leaf

...

I wanna sing a song, that’d be just ours

But I sang them all to another heart

And I wanna cry, I wanna fall in love

But all my tears have been used up

On another love, another love

All my tears have been used up

On another love, another love

All my tears have been used up

On another love, another love

All my tears have been used up

--
Another Love by Tom Odell

And don't ever stop

Live high

Live mighty

Live righteously

Taking it easy

Live high, live mighty

Live righteously

 

--
Live high by Jason Mraz

Decisions decisions

Propped up by lies with promises 

Saving my place as life forgets 

Maybe it's time I saw the world 

I'm only here for a while 

But patience is not my style 

And I'm so tired that I gotta go

 ... 

I'm over existing in limbo  

I'm over the myths and placebos  

I don't really mind if I just fade away*

--
* Zzyzx Road by Stone Sour

Late

I never should'a let her go
So many things I should'a let her know
Should'a held her in my arms said baby no, please wait
I woke up to find, she had changed her mind
I'd run out of time, 'bout a million kisses too late.

I let her walk away, I lost it all that day
Don't make the same mistake

-- 
* A Million Kisses Late by Matt Dusk

Not a mistake

Los errores no se eligen

para bien o para mal

no fallé cuando viniste... y tu, y tu

no quisiste fallar

...

Tengo una mala noticia

no fue de casualidad

yo quería que nos pasara... y tu, y tu

lo dejaste pasar

...

Y nada nada de esto

nada de esto fue un error (nada) oh oh

nada fue un error

nada de esto fue un error oh oh

nada fue un error (y nada)*

--
* Nada Fue Un Error by Coty, Julieta Venegas y Paulina Rubio

Until...

This is how it works

You're young until you're not

You love until you don't

You try until you can't

You laugh until you cry

You cry until you laugh

And everyone must breathe

Until their dying breath*

-- 
* On The Radio by Regina Spektor

Run away! Run away!!!

And maybe I'll find out

A way to make it back someday

To watch you, to guide you

Through the darkest of your days.

If a great wave shall fall

And fall upon us all

Well, then I hope there's someone out there

Who can bring me back to you.

If I could, then I would

I'll go wherever you will go

Way up high or down low

I'll go wherever you will go

Run away with my heart

Run away with my hope

Run away with my love

I know now, just quite how

My life and love might still go on

In your heart, in your mind

I'll stay with you for all of time.* 

-- 
*  Wherever You Will Go by The Calling

Learning...the hard way

Head under water
And they tell me to breathe easy for a while
The breathing gets harder, even I know that
Made room for me but it's too soon to see
If I'm happy in your hands

* Love Song by Sara Bareilles

A singular fear *tears*

Settle down, it'll all be clear
Don't pay no mind to the demons
They fill you with fear
The trouble it might drag you down
If you get lost, you can always be found

Just know you’re not alone
Cause I’m going to make this place your home*

--

* Home by Phillip Phillips

I surely hope so

When you find it in your heart

Look this way and I'll never stop

When you can't find what words to say

I'll know what you mean anyways

...

I tell you somebody knows what you're talking about
I tell you somebody knows
I tell you somebody knows what you're talking about
I tell you somebody knows

And I'll do it again, oh, I would gladly do it
Oh, I'll do it again, oh, again now, oh, I would gladly do it
Oh, I'll do it again, oh, I would gladly do it
Oh, I'll do it again, ooh, I would gladly, gladly do it*

--

* Talking About by Susan Tedeschi

Love is the answer

A poco no está duro pa' ti
Pa' que sigues así
Sí aquí estoy yo

Nunca te haz sentido que ya
parece el final
Pues fijate en mí
Tú encontrarás contestación

Fijate en ti
Muy dentro de ti
Tú vas a encontrarme a mi
Para darte amor*

 
--
* Contestacion by Los Lonely boys

Have you FELT music on your skin?! I did! Tonight!

Save me from this prison
Lord help me get away
Cause only you can save me now
From this misery
Cause I've been lost in my own place
And I'm getting' weary
How far is heaven
And I know I need to change
My ways of livin'
How far is heaven, Lord can you tell me*

--
*  Heaven by Los Lonely Boys  

I wanna go!

I wanna go to Marz

Where green rivers flow

And your sweet sixteen is waiting for you after the show

I wanna go to Marz

We'll meet the gold dust twins tonight

You'll get your heart's desire, I will meet you under the lights*

--

* I Wanna Go To Marz by John Grant

Honored

And all I can say

Is you blow me away

Like an apple on a tree

Hiding out behind the leaves

I was difficult to reach

But you picked me

Like a shell upon a beach

Just another pretty piece

I was difficult to see

But you picked me

Yeah you picked me*

--

* You Picked Me by A Fine Frenzy

Chills & Tears

* "If I Be Wrong" by Wolf Larsen

Ugh! Didn't need to hear this one today

These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears

And I held your hand through all of these years

But you still have

All of me*

--

* My Immortal by Evanescence 

C'mon! Let's dance!

C'mon Doll by My Goodness

Mary's shame...and redemption

The room grew still
As she made her way to Jesus
She stumbles through the tears that made her blind
She felt such pain
Some spoke in anger
Heard folks whisper
There's no place here for her kind
Still on she came
Through the shame that flushed her face
Until at last, she knelt before his feet
And though she spoke no words
Everything she said was heard
As she poured her love for the Master
From her box of alabaster

And I've come to pour
My praise on Him
Like oil from Mary's alabaster box
Don't be angry if I wash his feet with my tears
And I dry them with my hair
You weren't there the night He found me
You did not feel what I felt
When he wrapped his love all around me and
You don't know the cost of the oil
In my alabaster box*

--
* Alabaster Box by Cece Winans
**  This song has been cathartic for me for a few years now.  I heard it yesterday and thought about posting it but decided against it.  It was serendipity...as I was going to be needing it tonight after receiving an email that tore my heart up yet again.  I need love wrapped around me. Seriously! Something's gotta give.

Burrito Supreme, oh **

It's hard to rely on my good intentions
When my head's full of things that I can't mention
Seems I usually get things right
But I can't understand what I did last night

And it's hard to rely on my own good senses
When I miss so much that requires attention
I have to laugh at myself sometimes
And I can see that I'm not blind

There's little relief
Give us reprieve, oh**
For all the things I've left behind
I'm positive that I'm not blind*

--

* Good Intentions by Toad The Wet Sprocket
** I always sing this as "burrito supreme" because my then-boyfriend used to do it to annoy me. And I totally pretended to be miffed by it because it made him laugh that laugh I loved. :)

Touch

Cause I come alive with your touch

Your touch it always sets me free

I can't get quite enough

Too much of you is what I need

Yes I know you're the one

Cause love has come alive in me*

--

* Touch by Jonny Lang

Pain Pain Pain

Touch me and then turn away  

Put your hands into the flame 

Tell me if you feel this pain  

'cause I don't want to be your ball and chain
 

I just can't keep hanging on  

To you and me  

I just don't know what is wrong 

With you and me  

With you and me*

--

* Hanging On by Active Child

Olympic love

 Oh babe, you got my soul

You got the silver, you got the gold

A flash of love, just made me blind

I don't care, no, that's no big surprise *

--

* You Got The Silver by Susan Tedeschi

She got me!

She pulled me in so easily
Right from the start
She played me like I was a melody
One bang on the drum and she funks me with a sweet kiss
She's touching me with lovers caress
No I can't fight it

She's got my soul
She's captured me
Holds me hostage when I hear that beat
I won't take these shackles off my feet
'Cause they're the only thing that make me feel free
That's why

I'm a slave to the music
No I won't stop till my heart pops out
I'm a slave to the music
No I won't give in till I stop breathing

She got me rockin'
She got me movin'
She got me dancin'
She got me rockin'
She got me movin'
She got me dancin'

I don't wanna be saved
Slave to the music
I don't wanna be saved
I'm a slave to the music, yeah yeah *

--

* Slave to the Music by James Morrison

Another NPR gift!

Consider this a sign

I am alone in a long long line

And even if you could feel alright

There's a reason, you never could seize it.

When everything is wrong

And it is been for a long long time

The place you have will never be right

But I'll keep you awake long enough to try

I won't make you any more tired

I don't have the heart to say that

No you won't ever reach me, won't ever reach me, won't ever reach, won't ever reach

No you won't ever reach me, won't ever reach me, won't ever reach, won't ever reach*

--

* Indian Summer (Des Moines) By Canon Blue

An awful lot of love

Can't you hear the sound?

Your heart is breaking down

And falling from a cloud
We'll search around this whole damn town

And bring back every fear and frown

And kiss and curse up to the clouds

And put your heart back how I found it

Baby that's an awful lot of love I have for you*

--

* Cloud 9 by Vox & The Hound

I need a fire breathing dragon...seriously!

Lessons learned, bridges burned to the ground,
And it's too late now to put out the fire,
Tables turned, and I'm the one who's burning now,
Well I'm doing alright,
'Til I close my eyes
And then I see your face,
And it's no surprise.

...

Time can heal, but the scars only hide the way you feel,
And it's hard to forget how I left you hanging
On by a thread, when everything is said, I will regret it, yeah,
I was doin' alright, thought I could make it,
Then I see your face and it's hard to fake it.*

-- 

* Crawling Back to You by Chris Daughtry

10 days...100 days...distance sucks all the same :(

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me*

--

* Here Without You by 3 Doors Down

Pretty much :)

I never met a woman

That makes me feel like you do

There's somethin' 'bout you baby

That makes me wanna be with you

I never thought I'd ever feel this way 

Your love is warm

It takes me to another place*

--

* I Never Met A Woman by Los Lonely Boys

Somewhere in my mind, I'm a badass ;)

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone

Read between the lines
What's fucked up when everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'til then I walk alone*

--
* Boulevard of Broken Dreams by Green Day

Bratty....sorta

Forgetting all I'm lacking

Completely incomplete

I'll take your invitation

You take all of me now... 

I'm falling even more in love with you 

Letting go of all I've held onto 

I'm standing here until you make me move

I'm hanging by a moment here with you

I'm living for the only thing I know

I'm running and not quite sure where to go

And I don't know what I'm diving into

Just hanging by a moment here with you*

--

* Hanging By A Moment by Lighthouse

Totally amazing changes...always evolving

Totally amazing mind
So understanding and so kind
You're everything to me

All my life
Is changing every day
In every possible way

And oh my dreams
It's never quite as it seems
Cause you're a dream to me
Dream to me*

--

* Dreams by The Cranberries

Could this be it?! :)

Life goes on
It gets so heavy
The wheel breaks the butterfly
Every tear, a waterfall
In the night, the stormy night
She closed her eyes
In the night, the stormy night
Away she'd fly.

And dreamed of para- para- paradise
Para- para- paradise
Para- para- paradise
Whoa-oh-oh oh-oooh oh-oh-oh
...
So lying underneath those stormy skies.
She said oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh.
I know the sun must set to rise.

This could be para- para- paradise
Para- para- paradise
This could be para- para- paradise
Whoa-oh-oh oh-oooh oh-oh-oh.*

--

* Paradise by Coldplay

Shhhhhh! I'm smiling! ;)

You wanna know how to make me smile
Take control, own me just for the night
And if I share my secret
You're gonna have to keep it
Nobody else can see this

--
* Moves Like Jagger by Maroon 5 feat. Christina Aguilera

More like 1,096 days...but still

Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this

One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more*

--

* A Thousand Years by Christina Perri

Holy gorgeous eyes, Batman!!!

When I look into your eyes

It's like watching the night sky

Or a beautiful sunrise

There's so much they hold

And just like them old stars

I see that you've come so far

To be right where you are

How old is your soul?

--

* I Won't Give Up by Jason Mraz

You were the song that always made me sing
I'm singing this for you (singing this for you baby)

Everywhere I go
I think of where I've been (think of where I've been)
And of the one who knew me better
Than anyone ever will again

You taught me to run
You taught me to fly
Helped me to free the me inside
Help me hear the music of my heart
Help me hear the music of my heart
You've opened my eyes
You've opened the door (you opened the door)
To something I've never known before...
And your love...(your love)
Is the music of my heart*

--

* The Music of My Heart - Lyrics by Gloria Estefan

14 years ago today, I did! :)

I'm gonna marry my love

And we'll be happy for all time.

Yeah, he's the sweetest man you could find.

So gentle and so kind.

And he's got those big brown eyes

I can't believe me luck, he's mine,

Not that he's no wuss.

Girls, you know his love is serious.

So warm inside,

When he takes me for a buggy ride,

When he takes me for a buggy ride.

--
* 4th & Vine by Sinead O'Connor

Excuse me! Is this sexy enough for tonight?!

Excuse me (Excuse Me)
And I might drink a little more than I should tonight
And I might take you home with me, if I could tonight
And, baby, Ima make you feel so good, tonight
Cause we might not get tomorrow

Tonight I want all of you tonight
Give me everything tonight
For all we know we might not get tomorrow
Let's do it tonight

Don't care what they say
Or what games they play
Nothing is enough
'Til I have your love

Let's do it tonight

I want you tonight, I want you to stay
I want you tonight

Grab somebody sexy, tell 'em hey
Give me everything tonight
Give me everything tonight
Give me everything tonight
Give me everything tonight*

--
* Give Me Everything Tonight by Pitbull feat. Neyo & Nayer

Cappies love the climb!

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going
And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!*

--

* The Climb by Miley Cyrus

A driveway moment

Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over

But had me believin' it was always something that I'd done

But I don't wanna live that way

Reading into every word you say

You said that you could let it go

And I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know-oh-oh

But you didn't have cut me off

Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing (oh)

I don't even need your love, but you treat me like a stranger

and that feels so rough

(oh)

No, you didn't have to stoop so low

Have your friends collect you records

And then change your number (oh)

Guess that I don't need that though

Now you're just somebody that I used to know*

--

*  Somebody That I Used to Know by Gotye feat. Kimbra

You are my lunacy *Sigh*

They’ve called the doctors
Today’s the day
I’ve lost it finally
And they’re putting me away

They tried to steal my thoughts
And all my memories of you
But I clung tight to them
Because I always knew

That a million men in their bright white jackets
Could never erase you from my mind
But when they bring me back to you
And tell you that I’m shiny new
The girl that you see may not be me*

--

* Bright White Jackets by April Smith

** Thank you BFF for this beautiful song

The hard part

Todo se derrumbó dentro de mí, dentro de mí
Hasta mi aliento ya me sabe a hiel, me sabe a hiel
Mira mi cuerpo como se quiebra
Mira mis lágrimas como no cesan por ti*

(Everything crumbled inside of me, inside of me
Even my breath is bitter, is bitter

Watch how my body breaks down
Watch how my tears for you don't cease) **

-- 

* Todo Se Derrumbo by Emmanuel

** Translation by me

Together again *happy sigh*

I've longed for you

And I have desired

To see your face, your smile

To be with you wherever you are

Remembering

Your touch

Your kiss

Your warm embrace

I'll find my way back to you

Please say you'll be waiting

Together again

It would feel so good to be

In your arms

Where all my journeys end

If you can make a promise

If it's one that you can keep

I vow to come for you

If you wait for me

And say you'll hold

A place for me

In your heart*

--
* The Promise by Tracy Chapman

My kind of love: Defiant & Unapologetic!

 They'll try to brake up our romance,
They didn't stand a chance.

We have the kind of love that so strong,
We'd be together from now on...

They´ll say that gossip comes from the devil's workshop,
And only true love can make it stop...

I´am gonna keep on, I´am gonna on loving you!
Till the day that I die...

Oh they'll envy us, of everything that we do.

But I wanna say it's wonderful -
When you love someone,
and that someone and that someone really loves you.*

--

* Let Them Talk by Hugh Laurie

The giddiness has started! Oh YAY!!!

It starts in my toes
And I crinkle my nose
Where ever it goes 

I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Where ever you go*

--

* Bubbly by Colbie Callat

Found!

I've been roaming around, I was looking down at all I see
painted faces, fill places I can't reach

You know that I could use somebody...
you know that I could use somebody...

Someone like you and all you know and how you speak
countless lovers undercover of the streets

You know that I could use somebody...
you know that I could use somebody...

Someone like you*

--
* Use Somebody by Kings of Leon

A different kind of high..no falling...no crash

When it's good, then it's good, it's so good, 'till it goes bad
Till you're trying to find the you that you once had
I have heard myself cry
Never again
Broken down in agony
And just trying to find a friend

I'm safe
Up high
Nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party's over?
No pain
Inside
You're like perfection
But how do I feel this good sober?*

--

* Sober by P!nk 

** An addiction to an emotional high obtained through maladaptive behaviors can be very difficult to break. Fortunately, those behaviors can be modified while obtaining the same high...without the crash of guilt.  It's not easy, but better than the crying and agony. 

To all my loves...near & far...Thank you for your love

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am home again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again

However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again

--

*  Love Song by The Cure

Just a hunch ;)

Can't wait to have my arms around my loves!

I wanna wake up where you are

I won't say anything at all

So why don't you slide

Ooh, slide

And I'll do anythin' you ever dreamed to be complete

Little pieces of the nothin' that fall

Oh, May

Put your arms around me

What you feel is what you are

And what you are is beautiful

Oh, May

Do you wanna get married Or run away?*

--

* Slide by the Goo Goo Dolls

I may even do so on purpose ;)

Dirty babe

You see these shackles

Baby I’m your slave

I’ll let you whip me if I misbehave

It’s just that no one makes me feel this way*

--

* SexyBack by Justin Timberlake 
** Photo by John Lund

Living my truth

Can't nobody tell me how it's gonna be  

Nobody's gonna make a fool out of me

Baby you should know that I lead not follow

Oh you think that you know me  

That's why I'm leaving you lonely  

Cause baby you don't know a thing about me  

You don't know a thing about me*

--

* Mr Know It All by Kelly Clarkson

Time to go!

Closing time
Time for you to go out go out into the world
Closing time
Turn the lights up over every boy and every girl
Closing time
One last call for alcohol so finish your whiskey or beer
Closing time
You don't have to go home but you can't stay here

I know who I want to take me home
I know who I want to take me home
I know who I want to take me home
Take me home
...
Closing time
Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end*

--

* Closing Time by Semisonic

R.I.P. Etta James

But I don't want a one night thrill
I want a love that's for real
And I can tell by your line

yours is not the lasting kind

...
I hate to spoil your reputation
I want true love not an imitation
And I'm hip to every word in your conversation

Who took me for a pushover
Whoa I'm not a pushover
Whoa you thought I was a pushover
Whoa you can't (push me over) 

--

* Pushover by Etta James